[an email to Stef and Mel]
Jason and I are doing well.
- I have been more than slightly overwhelmed with the demands of the Assistant Manager position at work, mostly it's requirement of hours worked/week. That along with two leading positions at church, finding time to exercise, cook, love Jason well, and sleep as close to 8 hrs as I can; I'm not very good at keeping up with Facebook or my email. I'm sorry for my lack of commitment to our long-distance friendships. Please forgive me and know that it doesn't change the love & tenderness I have for both of you in my heart.
Jason is doing outstanding at work, I am so proud of him! God is really developing him as a leader in the workplace and stretching him in his commitment to Christ in every environment he's in. He's gotten to have some really great conversations with non-believers, as well as some accountability-centered ones with those he works with who are walking with God.
In November our best friends moved to California. Renee was one of the most incredible women I've ever met, she was very similar to my mom (looks, mannerisms, personality) and vert similar to both of you in her faith (always reading, learning, experiencing God to the fullest). Life has been fairly lonely since they left, despite our positions as leaders in small groups and various teams at church. ( Good friends vs. lots of friends is a completely different feeling of fullness, you know what I mean. )
The craziest news in Maryland: Jason applied for two overseas positions last month and heard back from his first choice yesterday. They told him of the 9 applicants he chose to only interview one, based on his supervisor's assignment to "find a superstar". (bragging about my husband, is that ungodly?) Sooooo, we're praying. And seeking. And praying. Jason is peacefully waiting; I am scared to death, interested in God's adventure, and willing to follow despite my feelings. Still, scared to death. Like, more scared than I ever thought I'd ever be and more scared than I can honestly remember being in a looooooong time. Scared. - Prayers would we appreciated.
My family has been weighing heavily on my heart lately also, but I can't decipher what exactly God wants me to do about it. I don't think anyone has turned down any new roads of destruction, but my brothers and dad are still experiencing consequences of sin and the loneliness of lives separated from the Father. I feel like my heart has been softened continually by God's Spirit indwelling inside me and the heartbreak of their situation is too much for me to even think on sometimes. I feel helpless and disconnected, and uncertain on how to move from here.
Updates on both things will surely follow.
